Been feeling pretty dry on the blog front lately... not keeping up well with communication/relationships in general. Feel alot like I'm going through the motions of life, zipping through hallways so I don't have to talk to anyone, living for my pillow and the numbness of sleep.
Had a good conversation with someone yesterday.
I tried the easy excuses but they didn't stick.
And then we got down to it.
I'm afraid. Afraid I can't make something happen. Afraid I can't fix something. Afraid I'm not enough. Afraid of feeling alone in a crowd. Afraid of making old mistakes. Afraid.
It's so easy to see when I write it that I'm pretty much all about me and my mortality today and who wouldn't find that scary????
So, today I'm putting my "scary" list back in God's hands.
Do you ever get funky? How do you get out of it?