lately i've been realizing that i might be over the hill... on the other hand it's not all bad, it definately has it's benefits, being 40 something.
I'm more careful (full of care).
I have developed significantly meaningful relationships.
I feel things more deeply than i did when i was younger and there is a richness to experiences and moments that I may have taken for granted when I was younger.
I realize that life changes and try to savor what is here in front of me now.
There is also an awareness that life is pretty hard for most people and that how we navigate life when it happens to us is one of the most important ways we can reflect Jesus to people around us.
Recently our family got some tough news. Michael has been laid off from his job.
A friend asked me about how i would handle the news with the girls and as I thought about the answer I realized I want them to respond to the news as a full human being.
In their soul and relationship with God I want them to learn and to notice how God provides, how he is faithful.
Emotionally, I want them to be free to be afraid, to miss things they will do without, and to care for one another and especially Dad during a stressful time.
Mentally, I want them to engage in the challenge and be part of the solution, for us to pull together as a team.
I want this for them, and for me. But it's a grown up concept... to be well rounded and to engage all of ourselves in a challenge. Good thing I am over the hill...